Thursday, July 30, 2009

Okay, maybe I'm just paranoid....

....but do you think anyone is going to seriously hurt me for making an unofficial high school GSA in the south?

I keep thinking about those two poor boys in elementary school that were murdered for telling their peers that they thought they were gay. Elementary students. Murdered. Just months ago. And the police raid at a gay bar in Texas weeks ago where man's skull got bashed in. And I'm out of the closet. I have gotten insults and stares, but that's because my school has so many students that if you want to make any noise you have to be a BIG noise. Which is what I want to be so that people know about the club and how strongly I believe in what I'm doing. I just want to help kids like me because I've been there. I know that I wouldn't have had half the pain and hopelessness I went through before I came out if there was someone willing to listen and sympathize with me. It HURTS to not be considered equal.

The closer the school year comes the more nervous I get. There's been so much violence at school. An attack with a machete made it to the front page of the local paper. But do you think anyone outside of my family or circle of friends will care if an angry dyke like me gets harassed?

At least the ACLU is on my side. God bless those important, marvelous pricks.

3 comments:

Lauren said...

Well, i know one teacher that'd listen probably and that's mrs.gaddy lol. She's really liberal and very nice. I dunno what her opinion is on those things but she's really against any kind of insults on the gay community. and legally a school facualty can't allow you to get hurt if you really think someone will...i mean...if anything, no school wants to get sued over it. Deffinately not hillcrest with its reputation. Just be careful is all I really know to say. I dunno really how many open gays there are at school now. Many graduated. But I'm sure there's still some kind of group. Honestly, i don't see the club really going through just because our school has such a big rep now. I mean...it's one things to fight for what you believe but...i mean...be safe. I'd hate for something to happen to you. =[ Don't worry. Ive heard college is WAY different.

Lauren said...

Well, I agree with you on that about how i dont think having no government would work. People aren't intelligent enough and well...there's just too many bad people. If people could live with doing what they love and helping others, if we'd never had this concept of money, and like...i guess the way im thinking about it is like...teachers would be ppl who loved to teach and teached because they wanted to and farmers would grow food because they loved to farm and then they'd feed people, kinda like we still do...WAY far beyond anything soceity could do now. We don't have the right mind set to do that. well, my band fee was 170 dollars. It's sad that band has to cost so damn much. Something so worth behind a part of...and well...you know. It's just sad to me. My schedule was almost four hundred dollars though. I think if you're smart enough to take AP classes, you shouldn't have to pay for the damn classes. I can't stand politics but I get really into them sometimes now. And yea, I've deffinately realized that schools are falling apart. There are so many ppl that want to be educated but can't because of the cost. It's horrible. and I'm so tired of hearing that our economy is bad. It's bad but we're not in a damn depression. And holy crap, I felt bad for Strickland. Like how they're making her teach ALL science classes because they fired some. she loved english. Im just sick of soceity and the way things are.

Lauren said...

Sorry for the typos =[ Band camps been rough haha